Catastrophe

 I don’t cry

Catastrophe, 2011

Written by Graci Phillips

There's a little black box at the top of my closet

If you take off the top and you peer down inside

Theres the letters you wrote me stacked nice and neatly

Close to memories of you and I 

And I don't cry when I think about you anymore, that's a lie

Stroll on down Central and there to your left

There's the coffee shop where we took our first breath

With a mop in my hand and your relentless intent we fell in love

And I don't cry when I see your pictures anymore, that's a lie

Pages and pages of violin

With Frank on the dance floor you spun me in so close

And the Eiffel Tower shone just like a star

But hoodies and faded jeans fit much more comfortably

You drove me home with Abbey Road

And I don't cry when I see your pictures anymore, that's a lie

May brought the cruelest spring with a 

Park bench as a throne of misery

And we both took our seats

And you held me closer than you had before

Just to tell me you wouldn't hold me anymore

And I still cry when I dream about you

And I still cry when I think about

How we're two states away 

And now how we're never gonna know

How our story could have ended

I still cry when I think about all the things you use to say

And all the things I wish I'd told you

 catastrophe

Catastrophe, 2011

Written by Graci Phillips

Can I just say that I would like to get to know you better

You already have a way of drawing me in

Can I just say a smile has never looked better

Than the one on your face

Making my head spin

And you could be something good for me

Something that I’ve needed for a while

Or you could be a new catastrophe

But I’m willing to let hesitation slide

I won’t break your heart if you don’t break mine

There’s a running list of things I like about you

And I won’t lie I’m expecting it to grow

And you could be the change that I’ve been needing

And I just want you, yes I just want you to know

That you could be something good for me

Something that I’ve needed for a while

Or you could be a new catastrophe

But I’m willing to let hesitation slide

I won’t break your heart if you don’t break mine

Please don’t break mine

Well you’re tall and smart and oh so sweet

You make me laugh so easily

Safe to say that we could be

Pretty good friends at least

Pretty good friends at least 

Or you could be something good for me

Something that I’ve needed for a while

Or you could be a new catastrophe

But I’m willing to let hesitation slide

I won’t break your heart if you don’t break mine

anyways

Catastrophe, 2011

Written by Graci Phillips

Heads up, there’s people tripping everywhere

Seems like they’re falling, they all say they’ve fallen in love

But I don’t know who pushed them

Caught in a drive-by, Cupid’s in the corner of my eye

Fleeing the scene

I think that he was aiming for me

But what’s so great about love anyways

Anyways, there’s no one here for me to love

Oh, anyways, I’m just too busy being young

Oh, anyways, my heart’s in no good shape to gamble

Anyways, I think I’m much too much to handle

And I don’t know who I can trust

Ain’t no little thing, ain’t no little thing

It’s love, it’s love, love, love

Let’s have it, are you just another white rabbit 

That I’ll chase until you’re out of sight

I’m so sick of crawling into black holes

Just to come out with crazy queens at my side

Into the looking glass we go

Where it comes out nobody knows

And is it worth it, all the pain and the waiting

My hearts full to bursting with anticipating 

Falling, is that really how it goes

Falling in love, like you’re tripping off your toes

Oh, falling, who’d go for such a silly thing

When the only outcome is bruised and battered knees

And, I don’t know if I believe in such a silly thing

Such a silly thing as falling in love

In love, love, love

You know I’d love to find my Prince Charming

But the selection is quite alarming

So I think I’ll wait this one out

I don’t wanna get broken again

So I think I’d rather have friends

Than boys lining up ‘round the block

Each with a piece of my heart 

Just wanna fall in love

Fall in love, fall in love, in love

Falling in love, in love, in love, love

 don’t need me

Catastrophe, 2011

Written by Graci Phillips

Every time I try to fly 

I realize that my wings are broken

and when I'm trying to ask why

There's no sound cause my tongues not working

And in my eyes

There's disappointment I can't hide

But for once in my life

I wish that someone needed me

Like they need to breathe

I'd need you babe and you'd need me

And at one point in my life

I thought we weren't afraid of love

I thought that we'd both learned enough 

I knew how it would be

But I didn't cause you don't need me

Somewhere in my mind I've convinced myself

That you don't know what you're saying

And I'm taking it all in stride

But my lips are simply not conveying

That all I ever wanted was you

But for once in my life

I wish that someone needed me

Like they need to breathe

I'd need you babe and you'd need me

And at one point in my life

I thought we weren't afraid of love

I thought that we'd both learned enough 

I knew how it would be

But I didn't cause you don't need me

You don't need me to hold your hand

But I've convinced myself you do

You don't care if I understand

Because you've gotta do what you've gotta do

But for once in my life

I wish that someone needed me

Like they need to breathe

I'd need you babe and you'd need me

 Ugly Cat song

Catastrophe, 2011

Written by Graci Phillips

I’m swearing off of love this time

I promise I’m not coming back

I’m done with love

My heart can’t take one more hit

So I’m stepping back

From the scene with my heart on the floor

And I’m packing up my bags

So tell the convent I’ll be there in a week

And have’m get a habit ready for me

Cause I’m done with love

Cause I’m done with love

And while we’re solving problems like Maria

Bigger things will sure be on my mind

My mind

I’ve made a list of things I’ll miss

When I have taken all my vows

Check it twice and you will find

That your name’s nowhere to be found

I’ll miss movies and I’ll miss my jeans

But I won’t be missing you

So tell the convent I’ll be there in a week

And have’m get a habit ready for me

Cause I’m done with love

Cause I’m done with love

And while we’re solving problems like Maria

Bigger things will sure be on my mind

My mind

So I’ll get a few cats

Start with one maybe two

And the ugliest one I will name after you

He’ll probably hate me and I’ll hate’m too

But what’s new

So tell the convent I’ll be there in a week

And have’m get a habit ready for me

Cause I’m done with love

Cause I’m done with love

And while we’re solving problems like Maria

Bigger things will sure be on my mind

My mind

 summer can be sweet

Catastrophe, 2011

Written by Graci Phillips, Michael Applegate, & Kyle Nance

Round up your light and shine

Cool wind blows through Carolina

This field’s just big enough for the two of us

Just your memory and I

Just through the garden past the walnut tree

I’d stay here forever if you’d stay with me

And my heart still beats with the memory

And maybe summer can be sweet

Look at the stars how they shine

I see your face in their lights

Miles away from your side

But we’re looking at the same star tonight

Just through the garden past the walnut tree

I’d stay here forever if you’d stay with me

And my heart still beats with the memory

And maybe summer can be sweet

I take a breath and I hold it in

Then close my eyes and I can feel you again

I let it out and you’re gone with the wind

But there’s not a breath of you I wouldn’t let back in

And maybe summer can be sweet

Maybe summer can be sweet

 lovely

Catastrophe, 2011

Written by Graci Phillips

Lovely I have waited for this day

Our new life is just a few moments away

And we know that it’s been hard

We’ve already come so far

And I’m ready to

Start my life with you

You are everything that I could want

Your smile alone is lighting up my heart

And if what they say is true

And love is all you need

Than I promise darling

We’ll have everything

Though the trials of life may come

We can face them now as one

And I’ll always be by your side

Through every thick and thin

Any trouble we get in

What a joy to know you’re mine

And we know that it’s all part of His design

Lovely let me tell you something true

I would wait a thousand lifetimes for you

If the world was yours to give

I wouldn’t take a single bit

I’ve got all I need my darling you are it

 That’s what i thought

Catastrophe, 2011

Written by Graci Phillips

I’m sink or swim since you left

And I’m trying to hold on but

I’m all out of breath

I’ve heard it said that it is harder to forget

The things you say out loud

So here I go

I don’t love you

I don’t love you

I don’t love you

Don’t try and tell me otherwise

I need you just as much

I need you just as much

As I need your lies

Try and look me in the eyes

I bet you can’t

Cliff hanging’s not my thing

So why am I here dangling at the edge

Dear sir, you’re nothing as you seem

Sign and send, new page

Again I’m running out of words to tell you how I feel

I guess these will do

I don’t love you

I don’t love you

I don’t love you

Don’t try and tell me otherwise

I need you just as much

I need you just as much

As I need your lies

Try and look me in the eyes

I bet you can’t

Everybody thinks that you’re an angel

But we know better than that

There was a time when I thought you could do no wrong

But I know better than that

I don’t love you

I don’t love you

I don’t love you

Don’t try and tell me otherwise

I need you just as much

I need you just as much

As I need your lies

Try and look me in the eyes

Try and look me in the eyes

Try and look me in the eyes

That’s what I thought

 I promise you

Catastrophe, 2011

Written by Graci Phillips

Please don't hold me

Please you don't need me

And this isn't working out for either of us

And I'm still standing here with hands open and empty

So please forget me

And I promise you I promise you

That I'm  not the one you want

And I promise you I promise you 

That I won't be the one that has all that you need

And it's too late too late

To back down

And I've gone too far too far

To turn around

And I'm sorry that confusion struck

To blind my common sense

And more than anything I wish that I could say

I won't make that mistake again

And I see patience wearing thin

On my own skin

So please please just walk away

And forget me

And I promise you I promise you

That I'm not the one you want

And I promise you I promise you 

That I won't be the one that has all that you need

And it's too late too late

To back down

And I've gone too far too far

To turn around

Please don't hold me 

Please just forget me

And I promise you I promise you

That I'm  not the girl that you want

And I promise you I promise you 

That I won't be the one that has all that you need

And it's too late too late

To back down

And I've gone too far too far

To turn around

 Lay my life down

Catastrophe, 2011

Written by John Phillips

Well I’m standing at the crossroads

And I figure only God knows

If I’ll choose the one that leads to the top

But whatever way that I go

At least I know that I know

I am trying and I will never stop

Trying to find my place

Here within this human race

Well more lonesome times I have not found 

Am I to climb this mountain 

Am I to reach the higher ground

I will not let the masses slow me down 

Oh there waits a crown

But I must lay my life down

For the one that needs a healing 

Who’s falling down again

For the one that life sent reeling

Reaping pain for all their sins

For the one who’s been abandoned 

Oh, I will be a friend

But I must lay my life down

Well at times I’ve been a stranger 

To the underlying danger 

Of a life lived for me, myself, and I

And of all the things I’ve worked for

I’ve found giving love means much more

Than to gain the world and lose my very soul

That is not my goal

As I live down here below 

Well more lonesome times I have not found 

Am I to climb this mountain 

Am I to reach the higher ground

I will not let my past slow me down 

Oh there waits a crown

But I must lay my life down

For the one that needs a healing 

Who’s falling down again

For the one that life sent reeling

Reaping pain for all their sins

For the one who’s been abandoned 

Oh, I will be a friend

I will lay my life down

I will lay my life down

I will lay my life down